Deliciously Mated (Ouachita Mountain Shifters 1) Page 7

  Better not to know. Feeling was too hard.

  At base, she needed to survive. She did not need to feel.

  She grabbed the disposable razor she’d found in Eagan’s cabinet. It felt like hitting the jackpot, finding one that he hadn’t used. She didn’t even care that it was a man’s. A razor was a razor was a razor. And this thing had five blades so it was like, the Lamborghini of razors. Who the hell needed five blades?

  She looked down, considering her bush, and amended that.

  What man needed five blades?

  Using Eagan’s spicy smelling conditioner as shave cream, she carefully dragged the razor over her legs. But there was hardly anything to remove after her spa clay treatment.

  She shivered. Never again.

  She repeated the process with her underarms and tried to figure out what to do with her bikini area. The cavewoman in her said to leave it. The hair was there for a reason. But maybe a little trim would be a good idea. Who knew when she’d find another razor.

  Did they offer razors in prison or was that something you had to buy with the three cents you got for making license plates or whatever.

  She started at the crease of her thigh and worked inward, but it was less shaving and more hacking away, machete in the brush style. Eagan’s Lamborghini razor wasn’t cutting it.

  Clara sighed. A slight culling would have to do.

  She turned off the water and dried her body with his too-soft towels. She’d miss sun-drying. Bathing in the hot springs. Even that harsh unscented soap.

  Quickly, she dressed in Eagan’s clothes. He was right, the fabric was much softer than her jeans and flannel. At one time she’d have considered it comfortable. But now she was used to rough and tough. She had calluses. Plenty on the outside. And not as many as she’d hoped for on the inside.

  In the cabinet, she found mouthwash. She rinsed and gargled. It was the best she could do with her toothbrush being back at camp.

  With a deep breath, she opened the door and stepped into the main room. Eagan stood at the bed, fluffing a pillow.

  “Feel better?” he asked, not looking at her.

  “A little. You?”

  He found her eyes, smirking. “You think you’re funny, don’t you?”

  She shrugged. “It’s okay, you know. Masturbating is perfectly normal. Functional even.”

  His jaw opened in surprise. Why did he always look like that with her? What she’d said wasn’t that weird.

  Unless…

  “Or maybe cat-men don’t masturbate? I-I don’t know how all that works for you. I just assumed—”

  “It works the same,” he blurted.

  She shrugged. “Okay then.”

  He tossed the fluffed pillow to the bed.

  “I didn’t masturbate.”

  “Oh. Well. You know… not my business really. You said you needed time so I thought…”

  Eagan closed his eyes as if his head hurt. “Dear god, woman. Can we stop with the sex talk?”

  She wanted to laugh. He was strong and gorgeous and he probably had women often, but he came off like a prude.

  Clara frowned. Did he have women often? The thought bothered her. If she was his mate and all, it seemed like something she should know about him.

  “Aren’t you a sexual person, Eagan?”

  He froze but then answered her. “More than you know, little woman.”

  So he did have sex. He just didn’t like to talk about it.

  A kernel of jealousy niggled at her.

  “Get in bed,” he commanded.

  “We aren’t sleeping together.”

  “Oh, yes we are. It’s the only way we’re sleeping. I’m not letting you out of my reach so you can escape me. We have shit to work out in the morning, but for tonight, this is what’s happening.”

  Clara eyed him. Something told her she wasn’t getting out of this. She glanced at the bed. The idea of sleeping in a real bed after so long left her uneasy. But after what he’d done in the kitchen to keep her safe…

  If what he’d said about being kicked out of his clan was true, then she owed him big time. What kind of man gives up his family to protect a stranger? She didn’t understand it.

  Gingerly she placed one knee on the mattress. It was firm, but still had so much give. Inch by inch, she crawled forward, settling on the plush pillow and pulling up the mock fur blanket until it reached her chin.

  Eagan stared at her, his expression unreadable.

  Then, to her surprise, he began undressing. Slowly, he peeled his shirt up, revealing his rippled abs an inch at a time. His skin was smooth and tan with just a light dusting of hair around his navel. Her eyes snagged on those cords of muscle around his waist forming a cut V to his hips and she licked her lips.

  Why was that part of a man so attractive? What function did it serve?

  Up and up he went with his shirt until his strong chest was showing. The muscles of his arms bunched and rippled as he pulled the t-shirt over his head and tossed it to the floor.

  Her breath caught. This man, her cook, he was beautiful. Like art you shouldn’t touch for fear of ruining it.

  He stared at her, his eyes stormy.

  Clara swallowed the beat of her heart. “What are you doing?”

  “What does it look like I’m doing? I’m taking off my clothes.”

  With rough movements, he undid his belt and then the button of his jeans. He never took his eyes off her as he shoved his pants down and stepped out of them. Before she could look away, he’d yanked his boxers down, adding them to the pile.

  He stood there, his eyes lasered on her, his fully erect cock jutting proudly in front of him like it was the bow of Good Ship Eagan. Like the needle on a compass and she was true north. It was huge. And hard.

  God.

  She looked away.

  “What’s wrong, Clara? This?”

  She looked back to find him gripping his erection in a tight fist. He ever so slowly, thrust his hips into it. Once, twice, three times.

  “It’s just functional, you know. It’s basically just a sperm hose for making babies.” His voice was low and rough.

  She knew that. Of course. But her eyes were riveted as he continued to thrust into his own hand.

  “I… I… never said there was no use for sex as pleasure,” she muttered, crossing her arms but unable to look away.

  “Didn’t you? You said our bodies were less sexual and more functional. I tend to disagree.”

  Okay, she could admit she’d been purposely obtuse earlier. But with the way he was throwing around the word mate, she figured she should remind him of the basics.

  He sighed heavily, his mouth hanging open, his face growing red from the pleasure he was obviously feeling. “This feels pretty damn sexual to me.”

  It did to her too. Watching him was turning her on big time, and it had nothing to do with functional. Desire whipped down her spine, settling in between her legs and tingling until she squirmed.

  “Okay, stop already,” she blurted.

  His hand paused at the head of his erection, and the corner of his lip curved up in a rueful smirk.

  “What’s the matter, little woman? You need some time?”

  Some time. Like he’d needed after she’d undressed.

  She met his lust-filled gaze and nodded.

  “Good. Because I need a shower.” He strolled toward the bathroom, giving her a stellar view of his ass. Twin globes of perfection, with a slight indention in each side. Hot.

  Clara blew out a breath and fanned her face.

  His body was plenty functional. Its function was to make her sweat. And pant. And lust.

  “Oh,” he said, just before he closed the bathroom door. “I’m going to masturbate now. Thought you should know.”

  Her jaw hung open and she didn’t even try to contain it. The door clicked shut and she threw her head back on the pillow.

  How would she ever sleep now? With that vision of Eagan pumping his erection every time she c
losed her eyes. After six years, she’d thought she was over sex based on lust. Sex based on purpose had a point and fit into her neat little survival criteria. But what she’d just experienced with Eagan—what little she’d just experienced—left her feeling truly wild. Like even the woods didn’t make her feel.

  What was happening to her?

  ***

  Eagan could sleep through a lot. Like the dead, some would say. He was a cat after all, and cats were notorious for sleeping. So all his mate’s tossing and turning didn’t bother him much. He was aware of it, but it never brought him out of sleep. When she touched his shoulder though, that was a different story altogether.

  “Wake up,” she hissed. Her mouth was close to his ear. He could feel her breath on his shoulder, and it sent all the blood in his body straight to his cock.

  He inhaled deeply, her scent invading his nostrils and making him even more hungry for her. His wild little human was divine. And the fact that she wasn’t unaffected by him… that was just icing on the cake.

  “Eagan.” Her whisper broke the silence with another shove to his shoulder.

  He rolled onto his back, peeking at her through slitted eyes. “What is it, mate?”

  “I can’t sleep.”

  “I noticed,” he murmured, reaching trough the darkness to touch her cheek.

  “Yeah, right,” she said, but she leaned her face into his touch. “You were sound asleep. Snoring, in fact.”

  He grinned. “I wasn’t snoring.”

  Her lips turned up. “You kinda were.” She sighed, her smile evaporating. “Can I sleep on you? The bed it too soft and you’re obviously hard.” Her eyes skimmed his chest.

  “You want to sleep on me?” he asked, unsure. “Like a bed?”

  Clara nodded. “It’s either you or the floor. And I’m thinking you’d be much warmer.”

  His female wanted to sleep on him. And she was right, he was hard. In the wrong place. His erection throbbed at the mere idea of her on top of his body. She’d surely be even more uncomfortable if she knew.

  But how could he tell her no. Those big gold-brown eyes staring at him expectantly, it was impossible.

  “Climb up,” he rasped.

  Her relief was apparent in the way her shoulders went from tense to slack. He held the covers back for her while she slung her leg around his waist to straddle him. When she was maneuvering, he adjusted his erection so it was laying on his belly. Slowly, she lowered her head to his chest, her torso pressing his hardness between their two bodies.

  Eagan grit his teeth. He could do this. His mate needed sleep, and he was going to help her get it.

  Easing her legs until they lay parallel with his, she let out a sigh and he felt her body relax.

  Aw, damn that felt good. His mate’s comfort was almost as satisfying as sex might be. And a hell of a lot more satisfying than the palmer he’d given himself in the shower.

  He took a deep breath and felt his own body relax. But there was nowhere for his arms.

  “Better?” he asked.

  She nodded against his chest. “Much. Am I too heavy?”

  “Not a chance. You’re perfect like this.”

  She relaxed a fraction more, making his chest tighten with emotions he’d have to deal with come morning.

  “Can I put my arms around you? Would that keep you awake?”

  She was silent for so long he wondered if she’d already drifted off.

  “Go ahead.”

  Eagan slowly brought his arms up until one was wrapped securely around her waist and the other with his palm between her shoulder blades. She let out another relaxed sigh, and he was struck with the realization that everything was as it should be in that very moment in time. A perfect second in an infinity of seconds.

  There wasn’t any sacrifice he wouldn’t make for her. Nothing was asking too much. His clan, his body, his mind, he’d lose any of it for her. And that, he knew instinctually, was what a big cat mating was truly about. The rest of it was just tradition. And the great thing about traditions was they could be broken.

  Renner had it right. And Eagan was going to help him show the others.

  With that thought settled, sleep pulled at him once again.

  “Do you normally sleep in trees?”

  “No,” Clara murmured drowsily. “A mattress made of a sleeping bag and old newspapers.”

  His heart squeezed tight at the thought of his mate in the wild, sleeping on scraps she’d collected. Never again. Even if he had to follow her out there and be her personal Tempur-pedic.

  He squeezed her tighter against his chest. “Damn. There goes my Katniss fantasy.”

  “Who?” she asked, her voice slurred with sleep.

  He let out a soft laugh. “Nevermind. Sleep, little woman.”

  Chapter Twelve

  Clara was ripped out of the best sleep of her life by a knock on the cabin door. A bang really. Several urgent bangs. Eagan’s big hand on her head urged her further from her sweet coveted rest.

  She lifted her drowsy eyes to his and her breath caught in her chest. His gaze glowed with emotion so fierce it should have scared her. But it didn’t. With his ruffled hair and sleep-sexy face and his strong arms holding her steady, all she could feel was… safe.

  She felt safe, and that… was a miracle.

  “Someone’s at the door,” he said.

  Clara nodded and rolled to the side, back onto the cushy bed. Eagan sat on the edge of the mattress and pulled his pants on over the boxers he’d worn to bed.

  He turned to look at her, his eyes wary. “Stay here. I’ll protect you, Clara. Remember that. And whatever happens… do not run from me.”

  “I won’t.” She meant it.

  He bent slowly, and kissed the top of her head. The gesture was so sweet, so protective, it left her insides quaking. That was her cook, always looking out for her. What had she done to deserve his loyalty? She wanted to be worthy of him, but the truth was he was too good for her.

  Eagan edged the door open. “Bethany,” he said.

  Clara recognized the name. It was the woman from the spa.

  “You alone?” Eagan asked.

  “Yes. Can I come in?”

  He hesitated, but finally flung the door wide for her to walk through.

  “I came to check on your guest,” she informed as she made her way toward the couch which sat adjacent to the bed. A single half wall separated the living area and the bedroom. “Oh! Hi there.” She smiled brightly as she spotted Clara.

  Clara attempted a smile, but it was early, and she hadn’t talked to anyone but Eagan in too many years. And the only other person she’d come in contact with wanted to “deal” with her and kill Eagan. So she wasn’t exactly ready to buddy up to any of them.

  “I see you aren’t bound and gagged as Magic might have suggested.”

  Clara frowned. None of that. Eagan had been a little saucy, but never cruel.

  “Fucking kidding me,” Eagan muttered, running a hand through his hair. “I wouldn’t hurt my mate. I’m not a monster.”

  Bethany looked at him. “I know. The others too. Nobody believes you’re going to mate her.”

  Eagan stiffened.

  “Unless… are you going to mate her?”

  His eyes flashed to Clara and then to the ground.

  “What are you doing here, Bethany?”

  “Checking on your sweetheart. Like I said. Magic told me she was human, so I thought another human face might cheer her up.”

  “You’re not a cat-woman?” Clara managed.

  Bethany smiled so friendly, Clara relaxed a notch. “Nope. I’m as human as they come.” She stepped forward with her hand outstretched. “I’m mated to Renner. He’s the cat. Like Eagan. So, I kind of get what you’re going through right now.”

  Slowly, Clara raised her own hand and gave the woman’s a single shake before dropping it.

  “Did…” Should she ask? Was it too personal? “Did Renner get kicked out when he mated you?�
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  Bethany cocked her head to one side, considering the question. “No. But we kind of consider that a Christmas miracle.”

  Clara moved to the side of the bed, tossing a glance at Eagan. He stood against the wall with his arms crossed over his chest staring at the floor. She looked at Bethany.

  “I don’t want to get him in trouble,” she said quietly.

  She knew he’d hear, but so what. It had been weighing on her conscience ever since he’d thrown her over his shoulder and marched her to his cabin. His kindness knew no bounds apparently. Or he felt some obligation to keep her out of trouble. Whatever the case, it wasn’t fair for him to lose his family over her.

  Bethany’s lips curled into a sad smile. “Oh, you’re special,” she whispered. Not in a condescending way. But like she was truly surprised. She turned her attention toward Eagan. “I wonder if there’s such a thing as a Halloween miracle?” She raised one eyebrow at him.

  “I hope so,” he muttered almost to himself, and kicked his foot up on the wall behind him. His stance was casual, but his expression was anything but.

  Bethany stepped closer to him, and Clara had the urge to glue herself to his side.

  “None of us think you’re a monster, Eagan. You just need to explain to them what’s happening. Especially Magic. He’s taking this hard.”

  What was happening? Clara wanted to tell them to quit speaking in code and explain this to her.

  Eagan nodded. “Yeah. Maybe you’re right.” His tone didn’t sound convinced.

  “Bailey’s manning the kitchen. Renner and Owyn are talking Magic down. Layna is taking care of business. Everything is going to be fine. Just… tell him. Tell him what I see here. Make him understand.” She hesitated. “Like Renner did.”

  Eagan gave her another non-committal nod.

  Bethany shot Clara an encouraging smile and then strolled to the door. “Tell her too, Eagan. Nothing sucks worse than being a human in the dark.”

  Clara agreed with that statement. Wholeheartedly.

  ***

  Eagan held his mate’s hand as they took the path through the woods that would lead them back to the lodge. He was going to talk to Magic. All he could do was try. If the man refused to listen, then he would take Clara and go. They’d make their own way. Without a clan.